Merciful Wisdom

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There was a reason God took my husband sooner than I had hoped. One I didn't realize until just recently. 

My sister holds a PhD in Experimental Psychology, the study of human development focusing on the brain. I shared my husband’s MRI brain scans with her. She pointed out other abnormalities in the scans besides the cancer. The brain surgeon didn't address them. He focused on the tumor, the acute, life-threatening issue.

However, the abnormalities, unusual dark spots, my sister diagnosed were signs of early dementia. So, even if the cancer had not taken my husband, it was likely he would have suffered from another form of deterioration. Only divine wisdom understood which course was the most merciful.

In our limited knowledge, we look at the immediate, the current circumstances and make judgements and choices based on them, not realizing there’s always more that we cannot see or understand. 

All that leads us back to prayer, discernment, and following God’s will even when it hurts. We don’t know if this current tragedy is saving us or our loved ones from even worse circumstances. My husband would not have wanted the slow deterioration and to become a burden on me. Nor would I have wanted to lose him twice. Once to dementia and then to death.

I pray God will always give me the strength and the faith to surrender to His will. God never makes mistakes. He is never wrong. He is merciful, wanting what is ultimately best for us and those we love.

Dear Lord, thank you for your mercies, even if they appear as additional suffering. Amen.