I Believe...

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 I’m still struggling to believe my husband is gone. I expect him to be in his office, or at the store, and will come striding in at any moment. The hard tears haven’t come — yet. Too many chores and endless paperwork have kept me too busy to address my emotions.

Except Valentine’s Day. I won’t lie. That day was hard.

However. God didn’t let me wallow in self-pity. He sent two angels with reminders that there are those who think about me. Maybe not in a romantic way but thought of just the same.

My sweet sister-in-law sent me a heart-warming video of four-footed companions who show us love in so many ways, reminding me I still have our Cooper. He’s a snuggly (even if annoying sometimes), companion who loves me.

That alone was enough to change my thoughts, but God sent another angel. My realtor left me a sweet card, a bar of chocolate, and a personal bottle of sparkling wine. My day turned into a lighter gray and gave me several reasons to smile.

After my second husband passed away, and I was facing similar uncertainties over my future, this scripture was in my morning devotions. It helped me through those difficult times. It appeared again this morning.

“I believe that I shall see the goodness of the Lord in the land of the living.” Psalm 27:13.

I miss my husband, but this ache and emptiness will fade, and God will reveal a new purpose for my life.

Until then, I must “Wait for the Lord; be strong, and let [my] heart take courage; wait for the Lord!” Psalm 27:14.

Thank you, Lord. You always know what I need to hear when my struggles seem unsurmountable. Amen.